Psilocybin & OCD Relief {natures way of helping}

At around the age of 13, I was diagnosed as suffering from the obsessive compulsive disorder. {O.C.D.}
No, I wasn't typified by the stereotypical image of a person who repeatedly washes their hands until the skin is raw.

My issue showed externally, from the age of 7 {when it started} to about 13, through tapping.
More importantly, and to the point, is that I suffered from over-thinking...everything had to be understood and 'perfect.'

At the age of 13, I was so driven mad by my own mind, that it was at my request that I was sent as an impatient, one summer, to a clinic for diagnosis and treatment.

Ironically, 2 things were done in an effort to treat me.

First, I was given Prozac. - I will tell you now, it did not work or alleviate any symptoms from my perspective.
It may be argued that others saw me differently, but what good is it, if it did nothing at all to cope with the root of the issue that still plagued me - my mind.

I stopped taking Prozac at the end of my teen years. It really was no good, no help, etc. {Just to clarify my thoughts on this synthetic medicine. :) }

The second 'treatment' I was given, was that of the value of cursing.
Well, this was an indirect treatment, as it was a general rule for all the kids there, that they could be open to express themselves with whatever colorful words they so chose. - and I picked upon it rather quickly. :)

At about the age of 22, I had more than a glimpse of a true breakthrough.
I was listening to a pastor who said that I was loved no matter what and that I would always be Gods child.

Now let me clarify something. I was raised from a 'pup' in a extremely strong Christian milieu.
Most of my life was spent in Christian schools and academies. My parents drove home their view of religion in how they raised me growing up. I will say, that most of my experience was from that of a Pentecostal background...with a lot of fear based dogma pumped into it.

Once saved you could loose your salvation, and then once you got it back, it could be dropped on the way from the alter by one 'incorrect' thought that you might have had.

Ah, now we see where the disorder, at least for me, started from.
Religion and parents attitude.

Whether or not they meant harm is another thing, because unwittingly, their fear had a great impact on my thinking.

They say a child is the most impressionable in the first 6 years - and at that age, I was already experiencing the guilt of a grown man, for the responsibility {as a teacher put it}, of the death of Jesus for my 'sins'.

I have posted, in length, about the arbitrary nature of what I call, 'classical christianity'.
Again, the very fact that there are 3 main lines of thought about who is saved, is in and of itself, absurd & idiosyncratic.
Why would anyone even want to get involved, let along get their kids caught up, in something so seemingly deranged?

So, after years of identifying with thought, as it were - and always seeking for security in my relationship with God - a message from a Southern Baptist preacher, {who ironically grew up in a Pentecostal background as well}, reached out and touched the core of my soul while I was in my first year as a missionary in Europe. {doing graphic design}

I now realized that I was loved, no matter what, and that I would always be secure as God's child.
See, from a Pentecostal perspective, the fear said this: "If once saved always saved, then you can live how you want and live like the devil."

The problem with this thinking is, foremost, that it is rooted in fear.
We know that fear does not love.

Whenever you realize that you are not being judged, that you are fully loved, {accepted}, this changes everything.
Love begins to transform you from the inside out.

It truly is the case of 'it is no longer I who lives, but Christ who lives in me'.
No longer are you acting as a slave and laboring futilely to make superficial changes to your life which just wont stick, {but in reality acts as an agent of the ego to lead other blinded people into your pit}, but love now begins to bear fruit in you.

Ah, but there is something. You are but a babe now. You have truly just been born again.
It is important for a babe to have nourishment, and for such a babe, where is he/she to get their food?

Well, for the most part the Bible, for such a person, has been distorted for so long. However, as the good book says, "seek and you will find...when you search with all your heart", well, from my experience, I can say it is true.

For me, a lot of my maturing phase has come from listening to Eckhart Tolle's audio books.
The philosophical teachings of Eckhart, actually have complimented by knowledge of the Bible nicely - shedding light on a lot of dark areas.

Also, one may say that its to bad that people like me have to grow up in such a milieu.
But like Eckhart has pointed out, those who are pressured more, usually turn out to be the gems.
People are less likely to change if not forced to. Thats just human nature. So things happen for a reason.

For those who are agnostic, atheist, Hindu, Muslim, Jewish, whatever... I am NOT suggesting for you to convert to Christianity to solve your problems.
The lesson I learned, can be learned from where you are at. 'God' reveals himself to mankind where they are at.
He lets the rain fall on the good and the bad. So, unlike the 'classical christian', Im not here to convert you or anyone.

Religion is a pointer, that many people get lost in. Take the point, which is that you are loved.
The Bible says to love your neighbor as yourself, and most people dont love themselves and have no clue what love is.

Paul gives a good definition of love...patient, does not remember wrong, etc. This is all good, and can be summed up as the following: Love accepts. Love allows space for the other to be.

Now what about Psilocybin, the compound that gives the magic in the 'magic mushrooms'.
There has been reports recently that Psilocybin has actually helped to relieve symptoms of the Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.

Unlike Prozac, I can believe this. No I haven't tried any shrooms, but from what I have read about them it seems to add up.
Apparently shrooms forces you into acceptance, which is, as you see, what the OCD has a hard time doing.
What I mean is this...from what I have read, if you want to avoid a bad trip, you have to relax and accept what is going on.

Now in concept, you could do this without the shrooms, as I have pointed out, but you have to have a basis in which to do it.
For me, my OCD was based around religion, and I was able to climb up out of that which had put me in there to begin with.

But it is getting late, and I have shared quite a bit to start some of those wheels turning in some of you.

There are various links to the topic of Psilocybin and OCD itself, such as CBS NEWS, and you can also research more into the affects of Psilocybin on people at Erowid, which is quite an interesting place.

Again, your mileage may vary depending on your perspective, as well as location - seeing that Psilocybin only seem to be legal in Holland...for the time being. But it may be interesting to read about non-the-less.

Until Next Time

Peace

dAlen